Mothering, Getting Started

Becoming a mom to fraternal twin boys in 2023 has been the most challenging, humbling, and transformative experience of my life. As a first-time mom, I truly had no idea how hard motherhood would be—physically, emotionally, and mentally.

As I write this, I’m approaching two years as a mom, and I can finally say: the fog is starting to lift. In the early days of postpartum with twins, the future felt overwhelming. I honestly couldn’t imagine life ever getting easier. The sleepless nights, the constant feedings, the crying (theirs and mine)—it all felt endless. And while I wouldn’t say things are easy now, there have definitely been shifts. As my boys grow, new challenges emerge, but there’s also more space—mentally and logistically—to breathe.

I often see moms online with beautifully curated Instagram pages or parenting blogs that feel so far from my own experience. I can’t relate. I want to offer something different: a realistic view of motherhood that honors the messiness, chaos, and hard moments. Because motherhood is messy, and for me, it’s been far from picture-perfect.

There are days where I feel like my only job is to keep my boys alive—and even that feels impossible. The number of head bumps, tumbles, and toddler mischief that happens right under my nose is enough to make anyone question their parenting skills. I’ve cried more times than I can count—sometimes with my boys, sometimes alone. The emotional weight of mom guilt, the second-guessing, the wondering if I’m doing enough... it’s all there.

But here’s the thing: I know I’m not alone. And neither are you.

That’s why I’m sharing this—to connect with other moms who are also navigating the reality of motherhood, the guilt, the self-doubt, and the daily grind of raising little ones. If you’re in the thick of it, feeling unseen, exhausted, or just needing to know someone else gets it—I’m with you.

Let’s stop pretending we have it all together and start telling the truth about what early motherhood, especially as a twin mom, really looks like. My hope is that this space offers you comfort, solidarity, and maybe even a moment of peace in the chaos.

We weren’t meant to do this alone.